Well guys.
My cat passed away last night. Since I am in school in NY i wasn't there to see her when she passed.
According to my mother, Bunny was really sick. She was vomiting everywhere. She wasn't keeping her fur clean, which is big because she hates being dirty. She kept shitting everywhere and she looked as if she didn't know where she was and who she was with.
Since this was the worst she had ever been, my mom took her to the vet with the feeling that she would have to put her down. The vet agreed after he did his examination. Bunny was a black cat, but every part of her body was turning yellow.
We've known for a year or so now that Bunny's liver was failing. There was not much we could do other than give her a high calorie vitamin and steroids. But finally, those things just weren't enough. Her liver was excreting al kinds of things and it was turning her skin, eyes, and mouth yellow. She could barely walk anymore because her intestines were failing as well. The vet said it was best to put her down. All that was left for her was suffering and seizures.
So last night, Bunny was put to sleep.
And it kills me.
I had Bunny for fifteen years. All of my very first memories include her. There was never a time in my life that I didn't have her.
But now she is gone. And I am trying to cope but I just can't. I was supposed to go home and brave the boredoms of NH just to see her. But now, I can't. My cat died without me and now I will be without her for the rest of my life.
There will never be another Bunny. And it hurts to know that I will never see her again.
My mom told me that I can decide whether we bury her on the property, bury her at a cemetery (expensive), or keep her ashes. I think I will choose her ashes simply because if they ever moved away from NH, we would still be close to her and won't have to worry about selling the house with Bunny still in the backyard or not being able to visit her grave whenever we pleased.
My heart is broken. I hate that death is so permanent.
But she had to go. And I am happy that I was lucky enough to have her for so long. I just wish I could have her just a little longer...
Comments (3)
sorry about Bunny, over the summer of I lost one of my alley cats, Fluff Daddy
@Velocity_Realm - thats a funny name =P
@Ben434 - it is. =[ i havent been home yet so i havent seen her urn. >_<